I know it’s an old film, but it has been on my mind a lot
recently, for one reason in particular. Reading some of the critics’ reviews of
the movie, I was surprised at how well some of them actually understood the
dynamic between the characters: Elizabeth and John. But even Roger Ebert, whose
review I generally agreed with, saw the ending of the film as a victory of
personality over purely sexual desire: while kinky sex is all well and good, in
the end without a deeper connection and knowledge of each other, Elizabeth walks
away from John, thinking that she just spent nine and a half weeks having an
erotic affair with a perfect stranger.
But somehow, watching the film after I already began my
journey into BDSM, I didn’t see that lack of a more personal connection as the
reason why the two characters split up. Kinky sex, or any sexual
experimentation outside of the traditional heteronormative relationship, I
believe, necessitates a deeper intimacy, as the participants are thrown off
balance, taken outside their comfort zones, away from the prescribed reactions
and responses: this is how you’re supposed to feel when he does this, and these
are the sounds you make when you are feeling pleasure, etc. When you’re
experiementing, you give up the advance knowledge of your body’s responses. All
of a sudden, you may find yourself moaning in pleasure as you’re being hurt, or
screaming in pain as you orgasm. You may find that you are not experiencing
pangs of jealousy as your partner fucks another, or, you may realize you like
to do things that for the outside vanilla world sound disgusting or even
debasing. There is a kind of honesty inherent in such new experiences, that
comes from simply not having had the time to fake a reaction, or from not
having a prescribed path to follow. And from that honesty, in my experience,
comes a deeper personal connection – not necessarily love or even a long-term
partnership, but a deeper knowledge of one another in each other’s vulnerable
and unscripted states.
So why is it that Elizabeth is so freaked out by the end of
the film that she has to leave, while she’s still, obviously, longing for John?
I think it is the issue of consent and communication. While we can tell that
John is more experienced in this kinky lifestyle than Elizabeth, and that he is
naturally dominant (which makes him responsible for her), he still makes the
mistake of assuming that Elizabeth is self-aware and strong enough to follow
him into his kink without getting hurt: that she knows her desires and her
limits, and can stop him without breaking what they have. But Elizabeth has no
idea what she is getting into! And having had no experience stepping outside
her comfort zone, as well as being in a vulnerable place to begin with -- she
is recently divorced, she does not have the sense of self, or the strength, to
control her situation. And this is what most of the critics reviewing this film
(and probably most its viewers) didn’t understand: in a D/s relationship, while
one of the partners does submit to the other, they both shoulder the
responsibility for the relationship, for setting and abiding by each other’s
limits, for being able to safeword out of a scene that isn’t theirs. Though
they are in a power dynamic where one dominates the other, they are still
equals in the amount of power each of them has to stay in or end the scene, and
to ensure that balance they have to communicate their desires, state their hard
limits, and discuss the scenes either before or after (or both) to see what
worked and what didn’t. Without that openness, they don’t leave each other room
for mistakes, and every error or misunderstanding might break their
relationship. This communication, in turn, involves consent on both sides, and
even though it may look like the submissive has no control, she has to consent
to giving it up – and even then, she has the power to get out of the scene she
is not ok with through safewording. Anything other than that I see as a
dangerous abuse of power that is fraught with danger of physical and psychological
harm, or at least, misunderstandings fatal to any relationship.
Elizabeth doesn’t have the power of consent, because John
doesn’t give her that option. We see throughout the film that she doesn’t know
how to end a scene except by leaving after the harm has already been done: as
we see when John puts her in a room with a prostitute. Because she never knows
what’s coming next, Elizabeth can’t prevent things from happening, and so it
really puts John in complete control over her (granted, he takes that control
and doesn’t leave her with much of a choice). Yes, that makes for a better film
that’s much more enjoyable to watch and shows the life of kink as much more
dangerous and erotic than if we got to see the behind the scenes negotiations
and the gradual growth of the characters that would prepare them properly for
each scene – let’s face it, successful lovey-dovey relationships that don’t hit
any major roadblocks don’t exactly make for great stories. But I think that’s
exactly what goes wrong between John and Elizabeth in the end – they get into a
scene that doesn’t work for her, one that pushes her limits too far, and she
runs away. Their last meeting shows us exactly how much John cares for her – he
is not the selfish careless bastard who just wanted her for the fulfillment of
his sexual fantasies. I believe he really wanted to explore Elizabeth’s kinky
side, to push her to open up to the desires hidden inside her, but because he
didn’t do it gently enough or carefully enough, giving her the choice to either
consent or break the scene without leaving him or getting hurt, she doesn’t see
his love, and so he loses her. Without clear and open communication between
them, he forces her to reveal aspects of herself without revealing much of
himself, and that swings the balance of power unequivocally to his side, creating
an unhealthy relationship. And while Elizabeth is strong enough to walk out
when she is pushed beyond her limits, she is not self-aware or knowledgeable
enough (neither about him, nor about her own choices in their relationship) to
stay and fix what they have, to negotiate and make it work for the two of them.
But she doesn’t leave a bad affair, one that only hurt and didn’t benefit her;
on the contrary, she leaves with a lot of regret for what it could’ve developed
into, but didn’t have a chance to become.
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